we’re here. i think i cried through most of getting ready, getting out of town and even a good bit of driving out here. i even thought as i was driving at 3:30am and everyone else was sleeping, “oh my gosh, i’m going to absolutely ruin our vacation with all my junk!” i have had a serious attitude problem lately (can we still just say “lately” or do we need to say longer…??) anyway, as the sun came up and i got a little sleep in the car, i started to feel better. my grandmother hugged me before i left and she said, “honey, just go with the flow.” i had already had a minor breakdown about someone’s adjusting the time of our departure. i thought about what she said this morning as we came into the mountains. we drove into alamosa before anything was open and finally found a little coffee shop (milagro’s) to have a cup of coffee, a stretch and as it turns out, bagels and breakfast burritos. the cool air filled up the van as we stopped and opened the doors. 56 degrees. glorious, i tell you. glorious. the altitude isn’t bothering me a bit. i feel lighter than i have in weeks.

we spent the rest of our morning slowly making our way to a condo in crested butte that has been generously provided for us this week. we always always camp in colorado, but simon’s being one was going to make that option less than restful, so here we are. in this beautiful condo, overlooking the valley of crested butte. simon is napping. the kids are exploring with tai. it is so quiet. so so quiet. i am enjoying the view from where i sit. soaking it up. i am not going to ruin our vacation. (although i could…sabatoge is sort of the name of my game right now.) i’m determined not to. even though i never never never want to go home…or at least that’s how i feel today…i am not going to spend all week dreading going back and all that comes with that. i’m going to pour another spot of wine, read a chapter of my book and throw my yoga clothes on for a 6pm class in town. and if one or more of those things gets thrown off by one of four children or a husband, i am just going to go with the flow. thank you grandmother.